Here's the Plan....

By popular request, I have decided to go ahead and write up a primative and highly flexible version of my wishes. I'm afraid to commit to anything because we all know that with childbirth, things can change rapidly. I hate to jinx myself, but here goes:

• I would prefer vaginal delivery: I have never had surgery, broken bones, or any kind of major procedure in my entire life....thusly, I am terrified of even going to the hospital, let alone having surgery. Some people do the elective c-section thing, but I just don't think it's for me. Now, of course, if something comes up, I have no objection to the doctors doing whatever is best for Lily.
• Drugs: Oh yes! I am a big baby when it comes to pain, so I will definately be opting for an epidural as soon as humanly possible. I love the idea of going au natural, but I know myself a little too well for that one. If possible, I'd like to forgo any other painkillers that they give before the epi, like Stadol or Morphine or whatever...hopefully, we can go straight to the epi!
• Delivery Room: I honestly have no idea who I want actually there while I'm laboring and then later, when I actually deliver. Other than Devin and my mom, I have not made any decisions on that one. I think I'll just play it by ear!
• Visitors: PLEASE! I have never had a baby before and have no idea how I'll be feeling, but from what I hear, the first 2 days you have an adrenaline rush. I'm sure I'm gonna want to show Lily off, so please come by! I will definately (unless something really crazy happens) be having Lily at Presbyterian Hospital in downtown Charlotte, so you can call there for room numbers, etc.
• Rooming In: If this is allowed, I'd love to keep her in the room with me as much as possible. I have heard many a mom say that sending the baby to the nursery during those first few days is a good way to recover. Again, that's one I will have to play by ear. I'd like to bond as much as possible right away and of course, have Devin bond with her as much as possible too.
• Nursing: I'd REALLY like to nurse, but I'm trying not to pressure myself about it. I will do my absolute best, but I will not beat myself up if my body does not cooperate. Well, I'll try to not beat myself up, that is.

I also have a few opinions on episiotomies (rather not), forceps/vacuum (please no), internal monitors (pretty please no)...but again, I do not want to jinx myself here!

I wanted to share (so I can remember when I look back) how I've been feeling lately. I think my hormones are completely out of whack! I have cried over the dumbest things for no apparent reason whatsoever. Last night, I found that Devin had left his razor on the bathroom sink for what must be the 900th time and I immediately burst into tears. I asked how I am supposed to trust him to remember important stuff about the baby if he can't remember to put up his razor. Devin is such a nice guy, he didn't even try to point out my flawed rationale on that one. He just apologized and said he'd try harder. I have also cried at the fact that he, as a rule, does not replace the toilet paper on the roll and therefore I have to do it every darn time. Then, I watched the State of the Union address on TV last night and managed to spend the entire speech cursing at the president like he could actually hear me. Then, I stomped into Devin's office and went into a passionate one-sided (bc he was busy doing homework) political debate. Then I cried again because he was ignoring my ranting in favor of his computer. Poor Devin, he is really darn patient, that's for sure.

Needless to say, my hormonal outbursts combined with my insatiable need to disinfect and organize every single thing in my house, makes me think that I might go into labor before we schedule an induction date. I just hope I get my sanity back sometime soon!