100 Things About Me

1. I think Mommyhood is the most rewarding job ever.
2. I can clean poop without even wincing and spit up in my hair is par for the course.
3. I wish that I got paid for that job so I could stay home with her all day
4. She is the most adorable baby I've ever laid eyes on
5. I am obsessed with blogs – I spend a good deal of time blog-hopping
6. I also spend a fair amount of time on myspace
7. Myspace is addictive and I have no idea what I do on there for hours at a time
8. I am very OCD about the way I eat. One bite of each thing on my plate, followed by one sip of drink.
9. If I run out of drink, I cannot continue eating.
10. I like to be done with everything at the same time.
11. Another weird eating habit: I cannot finish a sandwich.
12. I will always leave one little corner uneaten on my plate. I have no idea why.
13. My Mom is a German citizen and has lived in the US since she was in her mid-twenties
14. As she is not a US Citizen, she is unable to vote.
15. She knows more about politics and world affairs than anyone I know.
16. She taught me to care about politics and to look at a broader view than just what the American media has to offer
17. My mom has always had foreign friends, so I have been lucky to be exposed to many different nationalities
18. I believe this makes me a more well-rounded and less judgmental person.
19. I get very heated about immigration discussions
20. My mom is my best friend.
21. I miss my family in Germany and wish that I could see them more often
22. I am hoping to be able to go October with Lily, my mom and my friend Andrea
23. I have visited the following cities: Paris, London (twice), Brighton (on the coast of England), Geneva, and Berlin.
24. I worry that people will think I’m bragging when I start a sentence with “Well, this one time in Paris…”
25. Bragging annoys the piss outta me.
26. I have never been anywhere north of Virginia or west of Tennessee.
27. I am dying to see more of the U.S.
28. Before it gets destroyed by the lack of environmental policy from the government
29. I am a raging liberal
30. I am so liberal that I am almost a socialist
31. I think healthcare should not cost an arm and a leg – literally.
32. I consider myself spiritual, but not really religious
33. I was raised Catholic
34. And I want to baptize Lily as a Catholic
35. Some people think Catholics are harsh and strict
36. That has not been my experience
37. I think God has blessed me with a lot of gifts
38. Today, I am trying to remain grateful for all of those gifts.
39. I am a self-pofessed "car-whore"
40. I really like engines and knowing how they work
41. I love talking cars with people who know more than me
42. And I love using that knowledge to make sure that I do not get screwed on car repairs when I take my car to a mechanic.
43. I have a sick fascination with grammar and spelling.
44. I often type so fast that I make lots of mistakes
45. However, I get annoyed by other people's typos.
46. I seriously enjoy editing.
47. I actually offer to edit people’s school papers for them
48. And I like it a little too much.
49. Mountain Dew is my drink of choice
50. My dentist says he can tell
51. My teeth are in serious jeopardy
52. I am waiting for Oprah to pay for a new set of porcelain veneers for me
53. I haven’t asked her yet.
54. I gained 50 lbs when I was pregnant
55. I loved my pregnant body
56. After I gave birth, I thought I’d lose the baby weight without even trying
57. That has not happened yet
58. There was a time, during my “bad’ days, when I weighed 98 lbs
59. I do not want to ever be that thin again
60. It was not becoming to me
61. I am still 20 lbs heavier than my pre-pregnancy weight
62. And 6 sizes bigger in the pants
63. I am trying not to get depressed about it.
64. There are bigger things to worry about than the size of my butt
65. I worry a little too much
66. I spend a lot of time worrying about things I can’t control
67. I used to have a bad anxiety disorder as a kid
68. I would vomit before every dentist or doctor appointment, birthday party, or school event
69. I have outgrown that almost entirely
70. I had Bell’s Palsy when I was 13
71. The doctors told me it was probably stress-related
72. It paralyzed half of my face for 3 months
73. I still have nerve damage in my face from it
74. When I ask people I knew when I was 13, they don’t remember it at all
75. I still try to bite my upper lip with my bottom teeth once a week or so to make sure its not coming back (that’s how I found it to begin with…I couldn’t get my teeth and lips to connect).
76. I can’t believe that was 13 years ago!
77. I have been dating the same guy since I was 16
78. We broke up for a year and he married someone else on impulse
79. They are divorced now
80. We may or may not get married someday
81. I don’t personally care if I’m married or not, but I think Lily should have parents that are married
82. I am scared to have a “real” wedding because I’m afraid I will embarrass myself walking down the aisle
83. I am very clumsy, so I might trip
84. Or my panic attacks might choose that very moment to return and I will puke on my dress
85. See, I told you I was a chronic worrier.
86. I am part of an Anonymous fellowship.
87. It has changed my life in every conceivable way
88. I have learned the value of honesty, open-mindedness, and willingness
89. I will never be fully “recovered”
90. I am grateful for this because this means my journey will never come to an end
91. I do everything “just for today”
92. I was (and still am) very scared to share this fact with people, as I am afraid they won’t want to be my friends anymore if they knew the truth
93. The people that do know have been very supportive
94. It gives me hope that I can be honest about my past and that I will still be loved
95. I am learning more and more every day how to be the kind of person I want to be
96. I know this will take a lifetime to achieve
97. I hope it will help me be a better mommy and role model to my daughter
98. She is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me
99. I am lucky to have some really amazing people in my life
100. If you are reading this, then you are one of them